So…. where to start.
I bought this dress back around December with @misformazing @jpmetz and @soundlyawake.
At the time it was a 14/16. I couldn’t fit into it at all. I just knew that I didn’t own anything like it and wanted it to be a goal of mine to wear this dress.
So, for months I hung it on the inside of my closet door and then it kind of got lost amongst other things that didn’t fit.
Since I’m down almost 25 pounds from May 1st, I thought “Why not?” to trying it on, if just for a gauge on when I’d be able to wear it.
YEP. It fits.
Now, it is very form fitting. It’s basically polyester and spandex. And, I’m sure there are people out there who would say it isn’t flattering because it clings to my body and is not a dress to hide rolls or “imperfections”. But, I don’t want to hide those things. I’m proud of my curves and I’m insanely proud of this body that has bounced back from a year of painful back injuries. And, I’m thankful every day that I even get to walk, much less get to wear fancy dresses that I never thought would fit me. And I’ve done everything through hard work, healthy eating and exercise.
Now, my ultimate goal weight is 200, which is a little over 50 pounds from where I am. Though, as I get closer and closer to that I’m very aware that I could get to 230 or a number I never considered and feel that this is the weight for me. I’m kind of just going by how my body feels and how my back feels.
I’ve been celebrating a lot of little victories lately, but this was a big victory :))
So, I’ve been trying to get back into jogging.
It’s not that I don’t like feeling ridiculous doing the TA cardio, but I like jogging because I can kind of think and relax. With TA I’m struggling the whole time to follow her and most of the time trying not to fall.
Also, I always just accepted that I couldn’t run, that I had bad knees. So, when I see myself jogging I feel like I’m getting over just accepting things because it’s easier.
Today, I jogged a mile (walking only between curbs) and when I got back felt like I could have kept going. So a few hours later I went back out and jogged another mile.
Feeling really good :))